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Noticing a Mistake too Late…

In applying to med school on August 18, 2009 at 8:24 pm

…can lead to panic!

But before that, a little more about myself.  I am a slightly non-traditional student.  I completed my undergraduate studies in 2007 and took some time off out of shear exhaustion.  I had overextended myself in undergrad with numerous activities, ridiculous schedules, partying, and no sleeping.  Before I continued on my path to the M.D., I wanted to take a breathe, re-evaluate my life, make sure this was the calling God has on my life (I had other interests I was considering), and just rest.  Some might look down upon my decision, but wouldn’t you prefer a doctor who thoroughly thinks out their decisions rather than rushing headlong into whatever is before them? I think so.

Anywho, when you add in trips, various employment, and full-time enrollment in a post-bacc and such, it is easy to forget everything you did in undergrad.  Today, I finally received my Drexel secondary and was in a rush to hurry up and submit it.  I quickly sped through it until I got to the various activities section.  After making a side list of all my activities, and filling in the different sections (i.e. medical volunteering, employment, and other volunteering) I realized that more than one of these I neglected to put on my AMCAS primary application. Ut-oh…oh no! No no no no noooooooo!

Am I subconsciously sabotaging myself?!?  I compared my Drexel list to my AMCAS list and then felt like an idiot.  I hope Drexel does not doubt the legitimacy of my involvement in these other activities.  So, you might be asking why I neglected to put these activities on AMCAS.  I think it was a combination of reasons.  First, some were from freshman year (’03), which was all of an eternity ago.  Since then, more important info has been stuffed into my brain. Secondly, I only put the activities down on AMCAS that were substantial to me.  While I might have a shorter list than some, most of my activities are 3+ years of involvement with leadership positions, I am hoping that will speak to my dedication and not to a lack of interest.

As I look around on SDN – such a love-hate relationship, I swear – and MDapplicants I see similar applicants with comparable marks getting interviews already.  You already know what thoughts are racing through my mind… What differentiates us?  Why are the AdComs un-responsive to my application?  Should I have been less honest and open in my secondary responses?  Was I not personable enough? And lastly, especially for applications with few-to-no essays,  Are they not even giving my secondary a real look because my primary isn’t interesting enough to them??? Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!  While I try to stay as positive as possible through it all, I’m not even going to lie; among the first emotional flashes I get is jealousy.  But, that’s just man’s flesh and sin nature lashing out.  I try as best I can to quickly squash that and go back to being happy for those who’ve received their invites.  I just have to hold on to my promises from God and know that in due time, which is in His time, I too will reap the fruits of my labor.  After all, all I need is just one door to open, just one interview, and just one acceptance.  God knows the school He has for me, and who’s to say He’s not going to make the final decision simpler for me by just opening up one school for me?  Only time will tell…

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